| yes, my friends, xanga and I have seemed to have drifted apart since I left cedarvilleland... but have no fear, I am going to attempt to strike back, well i guess that means write back... It has been quite teh two months since I wrote last, in fact luke was even wondering why I deserted this sweet site, and to be honest I am really not sure. I think that its just one of those things you do here and there and well wireless internet hasn't been my friend in my bedroom lately which brings me to the excuse of --well, i am just going to start over... Since I last wrote, I was just enjoying summer and pretty much just loving life. I have an amazing fiance, the Lord knows that I won and that Luke is a prize, but really I am so thankful to have him in my life. we are on our way with the wedding scene, we have the place, the church, the officiant, my dress, i asked all my girls (in an amazing way, might i add;) jk), my colors: black and gold and red!!!, and a photographer and now our save the dates are on the way. Along with all of this our exciting engagement party is now in less than a week and I am thrilled, we will have so many who love us around us and I know its just going to be a night full of blessings i hope to preserve in my heart for a lifetime. It is fun to be a bride-to-be, especially with one of my best friends. we went to a bridal expo on sunday and had a blast! it was interesting to see these guys who were modeling tuxedos, dance on the runway like they owned the place, especially when all of the girls there already have their man, but i have to say that the little ring bearer was a sure hit! other than that.. life is going. i am finally kinda adjusted to living at home and going to school. yes, that is what i would call it now: school, not college. college is when you live with your friends, stay up past midnight everynight, work out at the gym to be social and of course keep in shape, and do whatever you want to do at whatever moment. School is when you drive to class, go to panera during breaks and then go home to find your family sleeping at 10 o'clock and because you don't have a roommate that wants to keep the light on you go to bed whenever you want. But, when everyone is asleep at 10 o'clock, you're during homework on your bed and you suddenly feel tired, you realize that you should go to bed... and therefore average about eight hours of sleep a night. All that to say that its a lot different. I also think i underestimated the power of change in my life. i thought that my transition to judson would be la-te-da-te-da and that i would just gracefully (as if i could ever be graceful) slip through classes and be fine, but the truth of the matter is that I realized that my life is changing to be something that it has never been. With that, there are risks you have to take and with every risk there is ups and downs. It has been amazing to see God work in my heart and grow me during the time when i can feel him as a friend beside me but sometimes i wonder what the growing pains mean.... soon enough i see that he is the everlasting God who never faints or grows weary and helps me to be able to mount up on eagles wings... and have strength, and have joy, and have peace. But, if i had to say that i miss something, I would say that it is katie. katie is someone who can brighten someones day, listen with an immensely caring heart and love with a loyalty that few can compare to. Along with katie, its those girls who give you a hug or laugh at you as you run down the dorm hallway or who endlessly laugh on car rides or who always seem to be able to give you a caring smile. its those people in life that you care so much about and you know that bond is because of Christ that I miss. But, it is amazing how cool it is to see what is happening here at home. luke and i are leaders at the home group at niles and we LOVE it! the past two weeks we have had about twenty kids and we are excited to see this ministry grow and flourish. i am becoming part of that community and there is such a sense of warmness and welcoming arms as we are already getting invited to homes. Spiritually i think that it is pretty easy to see that i have had to rely on God for a lot lately, it is so interesting to me that there is someone who cares so much for me even though i am so extremely far from perfect. the thought of worshipping an everlasting God, to me is something i am so thankful for because he is so worthy of our praise. read isaiah 40:28-31 and be reminded of the God that keeps you. it allows you to put yourself into the perspective that you should be instead of that higher place we many times place ourselves. there is a saying that i used to say last year and i think it is so key in order to really live for Christ and be ready for his purpose: WOW --- willing otherwise worthless. for HIS grace is MORE than enough....yours truly, kristen ginger:) |
